I wish, I wish, with all my heart…

I wish I could have top-tier grades.  I wish my school was refulgent… or at the very least, not smelly and old?  I wish I was charismatic and had amazing public speaking skills.  I wish I had super-socializing skills and could break the ice without looking like an idiot. I wish I could have this camera for Christmas.  I wish I were bolder and more sympathetic.  Wishy wishy wishy.  ‘Tis the season for wish lists, no?

But I’ve realized that being wishful is being wasteful—of all the things, all the potential that I already possess.  I can wish for an innumerable amount of things… but will I ever get them?  No.  Not unless I get off my lazy ass and make my dreams fo realz!  I can’t make all of them come true, of course, because I ain’t no Santa Claus.  C’est la vie. But what does that matter, anyway?  Sure, I’m not the best public speaker in the world.  My team sports skills and hand and foot-eye coordination are basically zero.  I quit piano a year ago, I’m not an officer of any clubs, etc.  I could go on and on about my flaws.  In all honesty, I’m deathly afraid that these flaws will prevent me from going further in life.  But the one thing I can do is to stride forward and learn from those around me who don’t have the same flaws I do.

I definitely wish that I was a better person.  Who doesn’t?  I want to improve myself—and stupid me, that’s what going through life is all about!  The daily lessons learned, the losses, the hardships—everything moves me one step closer to the “other” me—the person I can be with my full potential. I know I’ll never be able to reach my full potential, because there’s always room for improvement… but I want to get as close as possible.  Which, obviously, cannot be done simply by idling around, wishing the gap between me and my full potential-self away.  I’m going to actively work to close that gap.  Thank you for teaching me that logic, Dante.  :]

Ahh… but the most exciting part of my day was that one of my wishes DID come true.  I will be getting that camera for Christmas.  ^__^

Another toast-with-toppings snack—yes, those are butternut squash seeds and crushed PB puffins on there.  ;)

Onto my running-on-3-hours-of-sleep day… excuse the delusional-ness, and the fact that I couldn’t rack my brain for a real word to substitute for that

Hehehe, we got animal-shaped gingerbread cookies in bio today :]  I was going to eat my squirrel and crocodile cookies… until I saw that they had HAIRS in them!  O__O  Eeeeeeek. No hairy cookies for me, thank you very much…

Gurgh.  My teacher is so nice, but she’s utterly clueless—clueless as in, some of my classmates can explain things better than she can.  Oh well—it’s not like we actually learn in class anyway.  We just take quizzes and tests and “discuss” articles, maybe throw in a lab every two weeks or so.  Outside of school though, it’s purely reading.  Reading and reading and reading.  And writing lab reports, oh fun oh joy!~ -_-

*ahem* There’s no cookie pic, of course… my classmates already think I’m a freak genius (which is completely untrue, at least the latter part) and an overachiever.  Why push myself further into freakville?  P:

Oh, and I basically froze my ass off today.  Freaking 18*F!  Yes, that is cold by my standards, oh people of Canada… Subzero temperatures without precipitation are just bothersome.  :c

Dinner was at Whole Foods today.  I missed that place!  I might show my haul later, but one thing I must mention is that I finally found the Spooky S’mores Zbar!!!!  Holy freaking moly I was EXCITED.  I literally squealed when I saw the box, bahaha!  It’s FAR from Halloween (can you believe it?!), but I’m just happy I get to try this much-raved about flavor!  :]  Made me a happppy child, fo sho.

No pics of dinner, unfortunately—I forgot my camera :c  I had a delicious curried pumpkin soup with a big hunk of cornbread though :D  I LOVE me some cornbread, and I haven’t had it in forever!  The soup was a tad bland though—I had to add two of those teeny salt packets.  Shhhh…

Oh, and I’ll send cyberbabies to anyone who can guess what the first line of this post references.  ;)

I’ll end this post with another semi-tribute to the wonderful Katie: a deconstructed banana hammock!

Yeah, so instead of eating two banana slices sandwiched together with various goodies in between, I prefer to slice mine up and top them with the goods.  This particular hammock-wannabe was topped with dried cherries, black sesame seeds, sea salt, and Back to Nature cherry vanilla granola.  It gave me a mouthgasm, and that was no wannabe.  ;)

Heyyy babe.

Alright, I’ll be off now.  I hope you guys have an amazing weekend—sorry for slacking off on blogging/posting again!  School has been ku-razy.  And it’ll only get crazier until winter break begins… :/  So please forgive me!!

What do you wish, but don’t actively strive for?

Advertisements

My brain is dead and frozen.

*ahem* Thank you all for the comments on my last post!  I’m very humbled… gosh, commenting + posting on blogs instead of just lurking is so much more fun.  :)  And thank you so much for the compliments on my photography!  I was grinning like an idiot while I read them.  :D

Actually, I just played with a really amazing camera today (my friend’s taking photography, and they give you awesome cameras!!), and I really want one like that now.  With lens focus and everything… <3  Haha, too bad I’ll be short of like $500 or so if I get one… o_o (But it would be worth it, IMO, because I’m just crazy)

So, ever since the school year began, my sleeping patterns have been abnormal.  Like, for the past two weeks, I’ve been sleeping at 1, waking up at 5, and napping for 2.5-3 hours during the day.  Uhh… I don’t think this is very healthy, and definitely not helping my body clock.  I’m not even sleepy at this wee hour.  It’s almost like I thrive in darkness now… I don’t even drink coffee or anything, though green tea is a must (with breakfast and dinner).  Anyone else have a problem like this?

(Random: 11:11 right now!)

And now for more randomness—some random eats from the past couple of days:

Holy toast.

As you can probably tell, I have a really weird way of eating toast.  I like to cut each piece in half and put different toppings on each mini piece.  It’s actually a really fun way to eat it, with all the variety.  This particular piece had sunflower seed butter on one half topped with Back to Nature chocolate delight granola, one quarter with cantaloupe-vanilla jam (SO. GOOD.) and fresh goat cheese, and another quarter with pumpkin butter and roasted kabocha squash seeds.  Of course, I topped the entire thing with the obligatory sea salt and black sesame seeds

Toast, egg, and yogurt = my top three snacks.  ;)  And speaking of yogurt…

A lot of other food bloggers have been raving about the limited edition pumpkin pie flavor of Stonyfield Farms yogurt.  When I happened upon it this weekend at the grocery store, I decided to buy a container to see what all the gushing was about.  Normally, I eat plain Greek yogurt—the Trader Joe’s house brand on a normal basis and Fage when I’m feeling less impoverished.  Either way, I’ve grown so accustomed to the taste of plain, unsweetened, tangy yogurt that I find most commercial brands waaay too sweet for me now.

Fortunately, Stonyfield is actually one of the brands that are less heavy-handed with the sugar.  Introducing new favorite snack #3…

Limited edition pumpkin pah + dried cherries, raisins, granola, peanuts, and cinnamon.

Upon my first lick: “NOOO!!!”  Not exactly “NO, this is REVOLTING,” but more like, “OMG NO!  LIMITED?!”  I don’t know why the hell this flavor is limited edition… I want to buy a whole freaking tub right now!  That should say something about how much I like it.  It actually tastes sort of like pumpkin pie, but with more natural ingredients than I’d expect from “pumpkin pie-flavored” yogurts.  Then again, I’m not sure what exactly “natural flavors” means, because there’s something in the taste that I just can’t recreate on my own with yogurt + pumpkin + cinnamon.  :(  Maybe it’s rum-flavored?  Hmmm.

Wahhh.

Stonyfield, I give you two options: offer giant tubs of this stuff or make it an unlimited edition.  Preferably the latter, of course.  I’m too impatient to wait until next year to get this flavor again.

On the topic of limited edition flavors, I still haven’t tried the Spooky S’mores ZBar flavor!  I’ve heard good things about it, but I can’t seem to find it anywhere.  Not Whole Foods, not Trader Joe’s… meh.

What’s your favorite way to eat yogurt? Mine is a giant yogurt “mess”.  Is it weird that on cold mornings, I like to eat (slightly! only slightly!) warmed yogurt messes for breakfast?  I also will only drink warm milk.  My dad makes fun of me for these quirks, which are undoubtedly the result of eating no “cold” dishes when I was young.  Sigh.  Chinese grandparents… Now, I apparently have a “warm stomach”?  It’s annoying—whenever I eat in cold places (WHOLE FOODS, gah) or eat too many cold foods, I get major stomachaches.  :(  Moderate amounts of ice cream and such are okay, but I can’t eat the big “kitchen sink” salads that I see so many other bloggers eating, unless some of the ingredients are cooked/warm.

Whoa!  That answer was unexpectedly long, lol.  Off to study a bit more now~ later, lovers!  :)

Question #2: What kind of stomach do you have? Warm, cold… *normal*?!